adrien has Issues. issues about not being good enough, issues about failing, and there's so many cases back home where he's thrown himself in front of ladybug because the thought of losing anyone on his watch was just. not possible, especially when it was someone he cared about.
and then there was steven. ]
I— no, I'm the one who needs to— [ ah. there's a whole bumbling mess of things in his head that he can't organize or deal with and how is he supposed to put into words i'm sorry for letting you diei'm sorry for not being good enoughi'm sorry i couldn't do anything when he shouldn't ever have an opportunity to do so?
if this wasn't the place it was, steven would be dead. he knows that. that makes things harder.
honestly, he's already cried about this. he doesn't want to cry in front of steven. the only thing that would serve to do is make him feel worse, and that's the last thing adrien wants. it wasn't his fault. it was... his, for being too slow? this place, for dragging them somewhere that dangerous?
he might cry about this again. adrien bites his lip. moves to the side, and looks to the ground. ] —Do you want to... I mean. Come in first? Please?
[ and just don't cry when he walks by you can do it adrien you can do it ]
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adrien has Issues. issues about not being good enough, issues about failing, and there's so many cases back home where he's thrown himself in front of ladybug because the thought of losing anyone on his watch was just. not possible, especially when it was someone he cared about.
and then there was steven. ]
I— no, I'm the one who needs to— [ ah. there's a whole bumbling mess of things in his head that he can't organize or deal with and how is he supposed to put into words i'm sorry for letting you die i'm sorry for not being good enough i'm sorry i couldn't do anything when he shouldn't ever have an opportunity to do so?
if this wasn't the place it was, steven would be dead. he knows that. that makes things harder.
honestly, he's already cried about this. he doesn't want to cry in front of steven. the only thing that would serve to do is make him feel worse, and that's the last thing adrien wants. it wasn't his fault. it was... his, for being too slow? this place, for dragging them somewhere that dangerous?
he might cry about this again. adrien bites his lip. moves to the side, and looks to the ground. ] —Do you want to... I mean. Come in first? Please?
[ and just don't cry when he walks by you can do it adrien you can do it ]